"Some corporate companies are assigned quotas of hiring certain ethnicities or genders. Is this an appropriate way of battling discrimination in workplaces?"

Your tutor's eyes skim across the class of caffeine junkies and mildly sleep-deprived students with a look of expectancy. 

Immediately, tentacles of nerves and uneasiness wrapped your insides tightly. Raise your hand up. UP. You know the answer to this. What the heck are you waiting for?

Have a Hermoine moment. BE HERMOINE. EMBODY HERMOINE QUALITIES. 

 

Say the relatively long monologue you rehearsed in the shower yesterday. Ah, what was it? AHA!

'The key to achieving equality is fostering mutual respect between the two sexes. It is so misguided to think that companies are 'anti-discriminatory' solely because they hire a particular quota of individuals.'  

Wait, what was my point? Come on, neurons FIRE FASTER. Honestly, I should have continued studying a second language. I would have denser grey matter beneath my skull. 

'When the only pre-requisite to working in a company is based the colour of your skin, that is immensely patronizing and cheap.'

OKAY, now raise your hand, you're ready to go, girl. 

As you open your mouth, another voice breaks the blanket of silence in the tute room. 

More often than not, the discussion starts on a new tangent and the moment is lost. 

In Semester 2 of 2016, this was a relatively common occurrence in a few of my tutes. The odd thing is that in Semester 1, I never had this issue of overthinking my potential contributions. It was equal parts confusing and frustrating to suddenly be gripped with nerves at the thought of saying something in class. 

In my formative years of High school, I did have a wisp of self-consciousness when it came to raising my hand in class. Eventually, I was able to shake it off and become much more comfortable in large discussions. 

Back in my early Primary school years, I was enrolled in the Singaporean education system which greatly emphasizes on grades and rigorous study habits. The conversational exchange between students and teachers in classroom settings was practically non-existent. (Note: This is nearly nine years ago! So, these experiences may be outdated.) So, that teaching method taught me to be a passive and absorbent kind of student. 

Nonetheless, the resurgence of the slight anxiousness came back with a vengeance last year. And I would always find myself filled with regret after some tutes where I did not speak or raise my hand up faster.

It was a strange, disconcerting feeling. I knew I had to get it handled asap. 

TIPS

1. If you have done the readings, gone to the lectures, you will be FINE. Even if the tutor picks on you. So, rest a little easy, you hummingbird of a heart. (Aka, get your work together.) 

2. Think of tutorials as little spaces where wacky/passionate/controversial/refreshing opinions and perspectives are exchanged. What's YOUR opinion on the topic? Or subject? 

3. When your tutor directs a question to the class, it is because he/she wants to use the class's opinions and views as a compass. They feed off your energy and ideas that will ultimately propel the class discussion. So, help them out a little bit? ;) 

4. Deep breaths. No-one is judging. To be honest, the critical eye in your mind should be a little forgiving on ourselves. In a tute, a handful of people are daydreaming/sleeping with their eyes open.  Others are keen to hear what their classmates have got to say.

So, stop mincing your words and rewording them in a way that sounds most 'sophisticated' and 'oh-so-impressive'. Go for short and sweet and improvise. 

5. I know for a fact now, that participating in tutes makes time ZOOOOom faster and a whole lot more enjoyable.

Anyway, your girl here needs to do her readings and battle with the onslaught of week 3 madness. 

Hope all you first years are having a blast and getting heaps of new experiences. You keep doing you, sunshines. 

-Amanda ♡

P.S I HAVE MISSED WRITING ON THIS PLATFORM. Come say Hi at our twitter  ! Don't be shy. Shoot us questions or topics YOU wish to see. We would love to hear your experiences and thoughts on first year uni or VCE. 

P.P.S Playlist that is getting me through uni: 

Trainwreck- Banks

This Is Not About Us- Banks

Hole In My Soul- Kaiser Chiefs

India- Rod Ladgrove

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